Mental BLACK

and so i've heard that almost every blogger had experienced 'mental block'. something that goes when you wish to just type away but didn't know how to start or what to write. mine is plain black. not because i don't know what to write, but because i just have too much in mind (which is useless with the sentences that i should be writing on my task for work today)... here i am again, unloading bits of information, ideas, and thoughts that are bugging me to have a bit of free space inside my head, freshening my mind for work mode.

im bothered. i haven't been blogging the way i used to, or what i've planned in the first place. i wanted to blog to inspire, or something that makes sense. yeah, that's it... blogging that makes sense... sort of influential. humorous... but i don't wanna be like all the emerging blogs. i want to know what media im good at. right?! what's this? reflection time? shocks! the things you do when desperate. wait, im not desperate! just a bit uninspired i guess.

too much work messes your head. although i've had those quickie get aways, it's not enough. or it's not fit to keep you writing about the good stuffs. or bad stuffs that let's you end up with engrossing stories or, oh what the heck i think you get the idea!

here i go again making this as personal as possible (when i said i wouldn't shouldn't couldn't musn't). *sigh*

i have so much stuff that i want to do. (yup that includes a list that i wanna buy).

im still deciding whether i want to join a literary contest for the org. with all these insecurity running in my veins i don't think i'll be able to come up with something that's close to a "TRANSFORMATION" sort of piece. hmmm... i wonder if they meant transformers? but how can that be a real life story if it's filled with trucks turning into robots, huh? harhar! kidding! (ideas are welcome though). hehe...

oh well... that's it for the meantime my dear friends. i told you i don't make that much sense. and i warned you that this is just an unloading entry.

boring much! later!